So, I'm sitting here, missing him, as usual...I try to remind myself that I have come far just by being able to speak about him, or even say his name, but I don't feel as though I've moved on at all. I seriously do not go a day without thinking about him. I probably think about him 50% of my time, or more. I'm talking about it with Lesley, my current psych (I have 7 or 8 sessions to go), but I can't see how it's going to help. The lady from Cruise said I wasn't ready to let him go yet...well DUH. How can I let him go? Why would I want to do something like that? Psychs always ask me if I want a new relationship - I just give 'em the 'are you crazy?' look. You know what Katy Perry says; 'comparisons are easily done, once you've had a taste of perfection'. That's why I get so mad at the whole stupid human race these days - because everyone is so RUBBISH compared to Rupes. I can't even express how much I miss him. The closest I can get to saying it is by saying that it can't be expressed. What can anyone do that's ever going to make this any better? Aaah, it pisses me off that people think that this can somehow be 'fixed'. Why does no-one understand how SPECIAL he was? What does anybody think they can do to make things any better? I can't understand why people might think I would want a new relationship. I mean...why? If it's not Rupes, I just don't want to know. I'll never want to know. Everyone else is just a black-and-white cardboard cutout compared to Rupes. What would I ever want anyone else for?